Yesterday was FULL of a lot of anger ...
Which in turn fuelled an exercise in futility ...
Lots of questions
How can it be possible to laugh and cry at the same time?
~ never mind that this phenomenon almost always occurs just when one's mouth is full of food
How can it be possible for one email to say so much?
How can it be possible that when everything else is going wrong ... my computer goes on the blink too?
How can it be possible that it took me 40 years to realise that, yes indeed, water is thicker than blood?
~ honest, it's true ... No matter how many times they tell you just the opposite.
How can it be possible for one email to say so little?
How is it possible to feel ... one day so full of hope and joy and the next so full of emptiness and despair?
~ is it possible to feel full of emptiness?
How can it be possible, when I have reached my darkest hour, that someone I hold dear can remind me to keep doing what I do best?
~ and then everything feels alright for awhile, but only just a while
... And then it all comes flooding back ...
And how, just how, can it be possible to be so completely surrounded by love and yet feel so very terribly alone.
Thankfully I know better than to go down the path of why ... there's no point.
For I know the plans I have for you, says the Lord, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope. ~ Jeremiah 29:11But there is another long, very long, list of whens?, wheres? and hows?.
And I know there are no answers.
And I begin again with when ...
But not until I've checked the mailbox ... these came today ... and give me new hope for tomorrow.
Every day is a new day.
The sun will continue to rise and set.
Eventually my fear of going to sleep will fade and I'll be able to embrace the mornings again.
But for now I'll just curl up in my husband's arms and cry.
How can it be possible to cry so many tears ... surely they are not an endless supply.
They must dry up ... eventually ...Pin It Now!